Place and Space


I had access today and yesterday. RS2-J3.  Felt like shit yesterday so I spent my time in the space improvising to Vitiello’s music streaming off the web.  No daily practice but I did record a small improvisation.  I was just happy that I made it given how I felt.  Looks like I have the space from Wednesday to Friday and today was a better day.  I did do a sequence of three daily practice structures and I recorded the rehearsal so an outside eye is watching and I’m aware of it.  I set up the Daily Practice space in the field of view of the camera so it should have 3 minute moments of me just sitting in the chair looking at the studio.  I felt brittle and thin today, a product of the cooling weather and lack of humidity.  Since arriving in Sydney the humidity has been present most days and even in the coolish morning the temperature would rise to mid 20’s Celsius with humidity by midday.  I tried something different today structurally with the Daily Practice.  I watched the first 3 minutes and then I did the second.  Why start with doing? I find the watching is almost more potent to what I am exploring anyway.  Fidgeting and mind wandering best describes how I felt during the watching and the doing of the practice today.  Questions related to, ‘am I on’ were distant from my mind.  I’m still feeling out my body after not moving seriously for 7 or 8 months.

I did begin to question my thoughts about rehearsing alone and how that leads to madness or self-imposed torture.  Slightly dramatic thoughts I know!  I have been spending time in rehearsal spaces for the better part of 25 years.  I find it hard to work alone in a space and prefer having others to work with, but today I softened my stance on rehearsing alone.  In an odd way there is something comforting about being in a rehearsal space, even doing the Daily Practice alone brings with it a sense of familiarity and a sense of purpose.  I sometimes felt this was just me being in a situation that I knew and was familiar with but now I wonder if there is not something more to it?  An ephemeral combination of lived experience over the years that I bring to each rehearsal, each moment in the space.  A structure and place whose boundaries I understand explicitly.


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